Am I ready to give up and leave?

This really feels so confusing, i kept on thinking on how to make myself useful. Im still waiting for something, but my sight is now blurry. How could I see the future for that something if my guts and passion for doing it is constantly losing. Now an idea just come out of my mind while listening to the breeze of the afternoon winter. Should i give up, leave and make a new life? Away from the life that i really want to live.